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Why write this?

Guilt.  Shame.  Self-doubt.

Those are all things that I feel a lot, especially when I have been drinking, or am currently drinking.

Why am I so weak?

Why is my drinking still a problem though I've been aware of it for over a decade now?

What would people think of me if they knew how much I actually drink?

How is my drinking negatively affecting my health that I'm unaware of?

I can't seem to lose weight though I eat decently well.  Is it because I drink so much?

Why can't I even talk to my husband, family, or closest friends about my concerns over my drinking?

So much shame! 

I deeply desire to be free from it, but yet I continue to drink.




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