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Not Perfect, but Not Awful Either

The last couple days I've intended to not drink.  And then the end of the day rolls around, I'm at my wits end with a screaming child going through an intense clingy phase, and I go against what I've been planning all day and have a drink.  Why is that?

Tonight was a bit of a different story, I'm traveling for work and so for once have the entire evening to myself.  I once again intended not to drink.  I thought about ordering some takeout, but decided to head out given I'm in the middle of a major metropolitan city right now, and it's always fun to dine at a good restaurant.  I ended up choosing a sushi spot a few blocks away, and after perusing the menu I decided to order a sake. 

Same. Old. Routine. 

But the difference tonight is I stopped after one.  I left the restaurant, and while I had a very fleeting thought of stopping to buy some wine, it passed quickly and I headed back to my hotel.  I also had a fleeting thought to stop and buy some chocolate, but that too passed quickly as soon as I stepped out of the restaurant.

There's a minibar, but I'm somehow not at all tempted.  And a beautiful bar downstairs serving up what I am sure are fancy cocktails.  Again, not tempted.  What is different about this night than every other night at home where I never stop after one?  Is it that it's less available? Is it that I have a big day tomorrow and don't want to sabotage myself?  Understanding this could unlock quite a lot.


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